Disease as healing from unimportant

Many of us live in a constant “to-do” state. I live like this. I keep myself fully occupied during my life journey.

Recent days of life helped forced me to rethink this pattern. Showing what is really important. Reminding and asking me:

Do you give yourself time to process what is going on? Do you remember how to do simple stuff, not connected with Big Projects?

The lesson was painful.

So let me kindly ask you, my beloved ones:

• slow down and conduct retrospectives on your own before significant hints from life come;
• if you have been stopped from something several times, don’t push to proceed. Postpone for a while. Otherwise, you will be really stopped, even blocked.

And the story is…

When I was ready to squeeze the trip to Ukraine into my schedule, without paying attention to many situations blocking me on my way, feeling not good enough but pushing myself to go, the Universe said:

Wait, baby, there is another way. I want you to understand what is really important.

And laid me down with the strongest disease on my way to the Romanian border. 10 days of highest temperature, total pain, no possibility to speak or swallow, and a possibility to breathe only vertically.

And now you clearly see that another way of being and acting is possible, is needed, and is vital! There is nothing that important to make yourself the victim of your own previous decisions and activating a self-destruction program.

You see that your world didn’t collapse if you slowed down or even stopped

You see that:

Clients react calmly to the rescheduling of meetings.

Being at home (after 10 days of hell), minimizing the usual speed of life, you can:

• Cook what is interesting, not what is faster. That you can cook at all!
• Clean the house not because “oh, some mess is around” but to make it cozy.
• Communicate with the cat may be deeper, and not: “Chandra, remind me, have I already fed you or not yet?”
• Accept care is not a bag, even in the format: “Now I’ll hide your laptop if you don’t stop killing yourself this way!.. Drink!.. Soak your feet, you’re not a kid!..”
• Read books (paper…) for yourself, not for work!
• Do not check mail and instant messengers on weekends! Do not open the laptop at all, and be ok with it.

But, most importantly, you review your pillars, plans, and values, shake up tasks, and set priorities. You can see those who really care well and those who are “just temporarily getting through.”

Serious illnesses are serious trials and, at the same time, good springboards for our personal exit to the next level (hope, evolution one).

That one was vital to me.

And, I am grateful to life that there is always help on my way together with trials and challenges.